whoa

I'm just now realizing what happened..how selfish I was. Both of us...wow. I never ever want to be that person again...and I lost two great friends in the process. I miss Katie. Man, she must hate me. Wow. How could I have been that selfish and self-absorbed? That's not me. That's not who I choose to be. Jesus Christ...what a fantasy land I was living in..one where consequences didn't have a meaning to me.

Those kids...I took away their father..even if for a short time...jesus christ.

I'm so so sorry.