So

I guess I'll just drink some coffee and stay awake. It's 6 am already. I should probably stop sleeping all day.

shots for the book..so fun. zombies in the cane field will come soon.
Super bored these days..but school starts in a few days. I'm sure that will solve that.

Last night I had dreams of tornadoes,, flying..awkward.
Even marines were involved.

Almost time to go back to New Orleans.

Awkward trimmings

Crossed looks meet
muscles tense
and fingers freeze
Like a deer in headlights,

Reaching out blindly.
Connection, connect.
Together. Breathe.
Tentatively touching your hand
Searching, gently, breathless again.
Holding it in.

Is it safe to sigh?
Clearing my throat
I turn to you
Wondering if you are feeling
as awkward
as me.

Minutes soothe the tension
Or perhaps we adjust
Alter. Adaption.
But evolution?
I think not.
We continue to travel backwards
through time.

Fingers squeeze.
Reassurance. Hope.
Please?
Promise? Mutual admission.
Aceceptance.
We let out a long breath
and start all over again.

Not sure why I'm still awake..

I guess I have a few dreams I'd like to jot down..but my brain is so tired I'm not sure I'm up for it. 
One strange thing that happened was I dreamt last night about Marion and Christine's new apartment. I dreamt that they moved everything into the kitchen before cleaning. When I opened cuboards there was dust and bug remaints all over their "clean" cups and things. So I started a massive dish cleaning operation. Then I woke up with the thought in my mind that they didn't have a dishwasher. I tried to think back to the apartment the night before....stove..check...fridge...check...dishwasher? I called my sister early in the morning. They do not in fact have a dishwasher. It's so strange that on some level I noticed that without noticing it and it manifested in a dream. Brains are really amazing.

I've had some detailed dream states lately but I can't recall them at this time. I've been playing a video game for hours and I'm quite lethargic at this moment. However I did receive 2 letters today, one from Richard (Tem) and one from The Best Amanda. I wrote both of them back. Amanda's letter may be too big for the post..I stuffed the envelope. We'll see. I hate sending things throught the post because I have to balance it in the slit in my door in order for the mailperson to take it and most of the time they don't, anyway. So then I have to wait by the door until they come and chase after them basically. It's silly. Want a mailbox, pls.
Just one more week then I'm home again, for good. Matt has been moody. He says it's because I'm moody but I"m not, I'm super happy. Just around him I'm wary b/c he seems moody to me. We really both live too much in our paranoid heads...so when we finally come together we are both worried about the other for no reason really. It's retarded.



Other news....Slightly cloudy days ahead. Tomorrow is the red dress run...6000 men wear red dresses, get drunk, and run through new orleans streets. Should be wonderful. I only brought my digital camera with me though so I don't expect any impressive pictures. Oh well.

Tomorrow night is Dirty Linen night...Art galleries and wine and cheese and things in the Warehouse District.

That's all for now. Peace and Chicken grease.