Thoughts

It's been awhile. My best friend is in France and not doing well. She basically wants to off herself because life is a mixture of too beautiful and too painful and then--nothing. I know how she feels. I just want to show her that the moments of happiness are worth it. I think it's worth it because I love loving. I love loving people. It's enough.

Everyone has to have their thing.

Everyone has the same right to life.

I think I'm becoming pro-life also. But for sure pro-sterilization/birth control also.

People should stop having multiple kids. The world is too populated. One is enough. Two, at most.

Things are weird..I can't write. I have a paper due that's late--about my job as a phone operator for an escort service--and I'm having a hard time. I think I'm all over the place with my emotions lately..and have no one to talk to about it because I trust no one. Nada. None. If S were here I would probably say something to her about it, but she's not, and I may not have anyway. It's all boring bullshit anyway. No one wants to hear about internal conflict of the heart.

People want to be shocked. Entertained. They want to feel secure.

Trust no one aye?

That's where I"m at.