Ok. Starwars and Demons and auditory hallucinations.

Been meaning to put this down for a couple days now.
But first...I have auditory hallucinations from time to time. It's always the same thing and it always wakes me up from sleeping. Its my mom's voice saying my name urgently. Just once. Its so loud and urgent I always wake up and say "What?" I had to go check on her last night just to be sure I was hallucinating and she wasn't in trouble or something. When I was younger, it was "Jenny". Now its "Jen".

My dream:
First of all, in my dream world Starwars was the entire structure behind the universe. There were starwars gods and everyone's religion and spirituality had to do with Star Wars. So every year, on the same night, there was a Star Wars celebration. You built something and tried to launch it to the heavens to reach the gods. So I was dating Matt, who was a father with two small sons. The mood was joyful and eventful and we were all having fun.  The landscape was very open...stars were totally visible..the earth was a mixture of swamp and forests..depending on where you were. So we launch what Matt and the boys built, and a part of it flew off into the swamp (but it was a stable swamp..more like a field with small waterways that were easily traversed.) I ran off happily and looked for the piece. I found it..although it was a bit far from the house. I started hurrying back, my spirits still high. As I was running back I heard a noise over my shoulder. I looked back and there were three white people running for their lives. Chasing them was a black dog with a red head with horns. A demon. The white people ran in one direction and I ran faster toward the wood. It didn't follow them. It chose to follow me. It quickly overcame me.

The demon grabbed me and told me I was now its property. It rose into the sky with me and I knew my life was about to become hell. I asked it, in a tone that already knew the sorrowful answer, if I was about to be raped. It grinned and said yes.

My dream shifted to what was in the sky, 15 years later. I was seducing the demon. Not because I wanted to, but because it would rape me anyway if I didn't and at least this way I had a semblance of control. I saw it had a huge red penis. I knew it would hurt. Then the scene shifted again and my best friend had been captured by the demon! I asked her how Matt was doing and she told me that he had gone back to school to get another degree. I started sobbing. The pain was too much, hearing that he was advancing his life and had moved on. Probably thought I was dead. I knew I'd never see him again. We were just a star in the sky.

It was the night of the Star Wars celebration again. Something launched into the air. Only this time it went so high..I watched it streak into the sky from a ground perspective. It rose to the stars. And in the stars, it settled in a cut out nook of my friends dress. It fit perfectly. We were shocked.

The demon dropped to his knees. "It is a sign of the gods." He said. "Even I am not allowed to ignore it." And with that, I was back on earth.

It hadn't been as long as 15 years on earth. Matt's boys were still smallish. Maybe 5 years. Maybe less. I walked up to his house. He had built a house while I was gone. I walked in. He was shocked to see me, and embraced me, and we cried and laughed and cried again. He showed me around the house he had built, it was quirky and artistic and I loved it. We laid down to make love. He held me close and I felt safe. 

I took a job in a clothing store. One day when I was working, the demon arrived again. He was looking for me and had smelled me out. I hid behind the clothes, hoping that he couldn't find me. I believe I just made it out but knew that I couldn't be that carefree again b/c whatever had kept him away after he released me had obviously expired.

Then I woke up.